A tiny crevice is all you need to let in the glistening sun beams A tiny spark is all you need to grow wings and follow your dreams......
Human beings have a common phobia of sorts for reptiles in general . Perhaps it is something to do with their general appearance , that is, to be honest, rather creepy, fear inducing or even repulsive at times, no offence meant (!!). Or may be it is the way they drag their weight around , quite literally (!) on their short podgy limbs; or sometimes the lack of it, that makes them less appealing to us humans. The myths and rumors surrounding them and their poisonous fangs, might just add to the nature of this fear or hatred as you may deem acceptable.
The Komodo dragon is one such fear inducing reptile that one only sees in one’s worse nightmares, as that four legged monster chasing you while your body stays paralyzed and incapable to respond.
My opinion on this creature was not very different… well..until I happened to see one for real here in Indonesia. Komodo dragons or Komodo monitor is a large species of lizard native to the islands of Indonesia. And so it does not come as a surprise that on one of our recent visits to a tourist attraction called Taman Mini here in Indonesia, we had the good fortune of encountering a Komodo Dragon for real.
Well, it was not out in the open, and no I did not touch it . It was within the confines of a large enclosure . One solitary dragon, lazing under the afternoon sun.
As I stood there watching this gigantic lizard with awe, all my repulsion melted away… and I saw it as beautiful as it really was…
Just as I was about to turn away giving up any hope of making it leave it’s cozy spot, it stirred. And there it was slowly but steadily trudging past the small ravine and making it’s way to me, the glass shield being the only barrier between us. It watched me with the same curiosity with which I gazed at him. And then it seemed I had passed his test, for he decided to lie down on the grass besides me as I sat on the other side of the glass barrier, my fingers trying to reach out…
At that moment I did not see a carnivore that feeds on other birds and animals, or one that is known to attack human beings at times. I just saw a calm, gentle creature that wanted to be loved or perhaps was aching for some company…
Or as most people would say it, it was the glass that made all the difference !
Life is always so unpredictable ! Well , at least when you are a soldier’s wife all the more . Many of my friends have asked me how I handle being so far away from my better half , so frequently , when they cannot even imagine a day without their’s . Well I think life teaches you a lot of things the hard way…
When I was a newly wed army wife (or lady wife as referred to in the army ! ), I had similar opinions as them . I was a naive girl , who was afraid to stay all alone in a house , or even travel by myself ! I was brought up in a metro city , yet I hadn’t really ventured out to far away places on my own …
Yet , today things have changed…I have traveled alone to far off places , even on International trips with a two year old toddler , dangling by my side . I have now stayed alone , for nights in old , dilapidated bungalows (that belonged to the Nizam’s army ) and stayed without talking to my Husband for days (owing to poor mobile connectivity ! ).
I would be lying , if I were to say I am not afraid anymore. I am still afraid , still jittery , but I have learnt to face my fears now . One’s success is not in being ‘unafraid’ but in being aware of one’s fears and preparing to conquer them .
I guess , in the Army life we do not have a choice . Sometimes if you want to be with your husband , even if it means only for a short while , you are willing to go that extra mile , just to see that smile on the face of your daughter /son , when she/he meets her dad and vice versa .
Every time I go through a long , tiresome journey to meet him , my heart is filled with excitement and happiness , and in the face of these emotions , the weaker emotions like fear , nervousness and discomfort take a back seat .
Some of my friends belonging to a civilian life (as in non army background ) , call me brave , to have married an army officer . But honestly , I am not being brave , I am just adapting… and so will anybody else in my place.
Every human being had this innate instinct to adapt to his/her surroundings and this adaptability is essential for survival . So no matter what situation one is in , there is always a way out , if not , we can create it .
Most of modern day inventions and innovations today are a result of this adapation . It is the very life force that makes a drowning man , hold on to the next available thing to cling on to , so that he can keep afloat .
This life force is present in all of us , just that many of us do not realize it and give up on things quickly. It is when life gets tough , that we realize our true strengths , our capabilities. Of course it does depend from one person to another , as to how you emerge at the end of the hurricane . Some break down , while others grow stronger and more resilient .
Being an army officer’s wife it will , without doubt be the latter .
The other day I was watching the interview of an army wife , who lost her husband , in a military operation an year ago . What I saw in her eyes were not , tears of a dejected woman who was now a widow , rather a sense of immense pride and fortitude that would have moved even the hardest of hearts . She was smiling and eloquent through out and the nation salutes her stoicism.
She didn’t choose her destiny , especially when she had a four year old daughter by her side , yet she faced it with dignity. She rose from the ashes , much like the mythical Phoenix , with a vengeance .
From where does she draw her strength..? How did she manage to keep such a cheerful disposition ,in the face of such heart wrenching trauma . Now , that is what I call the life force . The inner strength , that guides all , yet only a few care to listen .
Everyone has their fears , their problems , their anxieties , but do not let these conquer you , instead , learn to cheat them and be a winner . .. I am still on my way ..
Here is a link to that interview if you want to have a look . It is truly inspiring…….. :
Alright so before we step into the year 2015 , it is time for me to accept and express gratitude for some awards I have been nominated for in the last one month .
First of all I would like to extend my warm gratitude to Dr Aruna of Ripples n reflections for nominating me for the ‘Inspiring blogger’ award . I am indeed humbled , especially receiving it from someone like Dr Aruna , who has been a source of inspiration for me ,ever since I joined this blogosphere , a few months ago . Her blog is a reflection of her honest and straight forward self and you may check out her blog for some great write ups , lovely poetry and some fun reads !
Secondly I would like to thank my fellow blogger Wanda of A girl called Wanda for nominating me for the ‘One lovely blog’ award . Although I have received this award once before , I would like to accept it as a token of appreciation for my work . I feel , one can never have enough of love and awards ! You must check out Wanda’s blog for her light hearted posts which mostly revolve around her motherhood experiences with her two wonderful kids !
Now for me to nominate a few of those blogs which have inspired me in some way or another . Those nominated , may feel free to accept the award , without the need for nominating anyone else further … Also , if you have been awarded before , please accept this has a token of my appreciation for your blog …
PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF YOUR BLOGS HAVE THE NO- AWARD POLICY… 🙂
Apart from these , there are a few I would like to mention , for the fact that their blogs have also in some manner or another , inspired me to write better ,click better or think better. These blogs have perhaps been already awarded the inspiring blogger award by Dr Aruna , but I cannot help mentioning them here in my post , because they inspired me too :
That is all for now…
take care all